So often, when I'm holding him against my chest, I find a peace I've
not known since I was a little boy myself, when I had both my parents.
I haven't had either of my parents for many years, and lost my Mom
to a heart attack when she was my current age - but these are stories
I'm not in the mood to tell right now.
I don't want anyone to get the idea that I don't have the same kind
of feelings for Morgan, but it's Morgan herself that makes the mood
of the moment different. She's almost in constant motion when she's
awake, where Liam is content to just be in the moment.
When Morgan is asleep on my chest, I feel that same peace.
Liam doesn't have to be asleep. He just settles.
I find myself repeating, "This is it. This is it. This is it."
It leaves me wanting for nothing. I've mentioned it to both of them,
fully aware that they have probably have no idea what I'm talking about,
but I'm sure they both feel the sentiment in my voice. Tonight I asked
Liam, "How about I quit my job and just stay home with you guys and hug
you and play with you and just be with you? Would that be okay?"
Would that be okay, God?
Could I just stay home and be with my family all the time, forever?
